okay. time for updates.

so i've started working in the restaurant, awayyyy from the mooncakes. they're scary i swear. i even dreamt about mooncakes after one day i worked for 12 hours selling.. mooncakes. working in the restaurant is damn fun please. time passes so fast. but it's also damn tiring dammit. and my back sometimes gives way, and i hope it doesn't this friday. ughh.

and the outings with wenlin and calvin never seem to get boring at all. WMAN yea? or is it WANM? oh well. both ways, you know i love you both. and khai disappeared from us. =(

and i've been feeling rather weird these days. so many happy things, and so many not happy things. it's like.. arghhh. but then again, oh wells.





and i regret putting effort in everything i had associated to it. the more effort i put, the more i feel like it's just wasted. i rather put effort in other things that will make me happy, rather than see everything go crashing down. and i won't be surprised if we really go all the way down. it's just so predictable looking at it now. and i wished school never ever bothered to sponsor, cos it really has proved the negativity of it all. so what if ones got more talent, so what if one's got more skills. i know it is for the better, but somehow, when one's got no attitude, that is when you see everything fall apart. when one's got no patience, no character, then is when everything bad comes about. and people will break apart, fall apart and quit. i wished the world was happy. i wished the world had only one character. i wished the world had peace. and we'll excel, and make everyone proud. and we'll move on as ONE. to greater heights as ONE. my heart just ached by what my two eyes saw. it ached at what my brain told me it was. it just ached. and it is still falling apart now. i dunno the reasons why, i jus don't. apologies come, but it doesn't make problems and feelings fade just like that. it takes time.

look back on the red top they had for long, and look hard at the word 'ONE'. it will give us the meaning of the word ONE, which means existing, acting, or considered as a single unit, of the same or having a single kind, nature, or condition.

we'll make it through, and we'll fight, only this time, harder.







and because you care, you bother, you confide. you make my heart smile like it never did before. <3

sung at 9:36 PM
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