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Wednesday, August 01, 2007


i was blog hopping, and came across this video on a friend's friend's blog. it was about a girl who fell for a guy, and te guy ended up leaving her. i mean, i don't wanna get all emo now, but i dunno. i just don't know why i ended up in tears. i would say i know that i am not in any position close to the one in the video, but it's just that somehow, we're all similar.

because i'm a girl, i can't help but feel the heartbreak the girl in the video is facing. the lyrics too, just brought myself to think. to think if i am doing too much, without even noticing that i have. whether i am affected by this whole situation tht i'm facing. i don't know. i may seem all hapy and jovial all the time, but really. there is more to me than what i appear to be. i get home often to an empty house, not even a person, a sibling home to laugh with. i end up just staring out of my window, and reading msgs from my dearests who have been pushing me on. i know that life has more ot offer than what i am already getting. i don't know why my heart wrenches at the thought of someone. i can't help but feel this way.

i was talking to a friend, and then she realised it was a whole rebel situation from my last experience. i thought it was true, but i realised that i could stand strong upon my decisions and tell her that i know it isn't. somehow, when i think and think again, i know that this feeling is one feeling i've never felt before. i don't exactly know how to describe this though. oh well..

and then to think about the times in school, the times when i actually see everything. the feeling just sucks. i don't like empty promises to be made, especially to me. i just freaking hate it. and i hate to be told to not think over small matter, because i really care. i just wish someone would hear me out. not as if i'm not now, but i dunno. it's just this feeling i'm facing that i feel this way. i wake up feeling all down and gloomy. i wake up and realise how i'm thinking about it every moment of my life. i dunno. somehow, everything relates back to you. i don't know why.

he'll still be my motivation, my cheer upper, my sweet friend and my bff. well, i hope so that is. circumstances, they suck. =(


sung at 9:05 AM

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