ok. just a quick one before i update about everything that happened while i was on hiatus. the o levels have been completely draining me out. ugh. anyways. back to what i wanted to say..

many things have been happening this few weeks. some really hurt me alot, and as i read an entry on another blog just now, i couldn't help thinking about what really happened. losing a friend suddenly seems bigger than i have always been seeing it. losing a friend just pierces me right through my heart. this may all seem too.. i dunno.. but i've been really thinking about it. it takes just a few words to change the opinion about how someone looks at you(as i have learnt). but it takes that very same person to spoil everything.. out of revenge? i feel rather stupid for that person. to tell people lies about their friend they regarded as close, and to make people think about his friend in another way.

you may feel good about all this, you may feel satisfied just cos i said stuff to you the other day, but deep down inside you, i know you feel dumb. i don't care if you ever read this, or if your opinion of me just gets worse, but i'm telling you, i'm not gonna care. if you think by doing what you did, you could make me look stupid, s**f, you look stupider. honest.

go run to her to tell her this. i don't think i look like i even care.

sung at 10:48 PM
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