i came across a post on JOquek's blog. it kinda inspired me to go all out to for the exams. it's all bad la. nth's going into my head, and all i ever think of are other things but study. but nevetheless. i know it's time to go all out.

night study on friday was just great. i finally found out what friends can be. whether you need them or you don't they're always there for you. i had cup noodles with raudah, malia and wee tao under the tree. lol. kinda funny. then moved over to my classmates who sat at the parade square. we talked, and talked. they asked me how i felt about being a muslim. lol. no comments. what you know i know la. we had some laughs, really enjoyed that 30 min we were there. it all just ended too soon la.

today's the 8th, and i'm only left with 5 days of school. friday's the graduating ceremony. come to think of it, i'm sure i'm gonna cry. it has never struck me about how i'll feel after i leave. no more fun in class, and no more crap with my classmates. i'll definitely miss those times where we could just slack in class, and when all of us could just laugh at anything and everything. i know i'll miss JOquek alot. and of course, all the girls and guys who have made my learning a joy.

its been 3 days. i dunno why i'm not feeling anything at all. i'm not dying in your absence. maybe it's cos of the way you treated me before you left. i dunno. i think it's not gonna be good if i hang on. that's what i've been trying to tell you. you never cared. so be it.

sung at 12:32 PM
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