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Thursday, June 08, 2006


band camp has just ended, and i think i've learnt quite a lot within these three days. i've realised how much i appreciate the friends i have and how i've learnt to be grateful for the experience i get from band.

well, i've realised how a wrong move can spoil a friendship between two parties. i've been in that kind of situation before, and i totally felt so lost. but i finally knew why. like i've mentioned. one worng move, and that's the end. i really appreciated everything that happened during the camp. i guess some things can be forgiven and forgotten. really enjoyed myself.

as i sat down to think, i finally accepted the fact that opportunities do not strike twice. it's either you take it the first time round, or you don't get any other chance to take it the next time round. sometimes, decisions made are truly wrong decisions. i've made quite a number of mistakes in the past, but the biggest mistake ever is yet to be known by any other person, besides me. i've kept it deep within me, and i never let it go away. it's been tough, it's been a bad experience for me since. but.. i never ever dare to imagine what it would be if i admitted how i felt. i just wanted it so bad, that i MIGHT have made a bad bad move.

it's been a long journey for me. ups and downs are no doubt always in the way. i can't believe i managed to go through so much of that, and that i never once gave up, only the thoughts came into my mind. it's been hard for me. i don't dare share anything with anyone, for fear of any kind. those tears roll down at night. but there's no way i can stop it. really hope everything would be good soon. i just wish i was better...


sung at 10:05 PM

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