the game agaisnt rp was great. fianlly got the chance to take back my position as centre, after thsoe weeks of being a forward. really hate it, honestly. but nevertheless, i'm still happy. like what mare said during training: 'it just feels so good to see the players improving.' for me, it feels good to just play with my team mates. i was blog hopping and i cam across smth: 'it's okay if you lose the game, it's whether you enjoy being in the court and playing that counts.' i was thinking about it, and i came to a definite agreement to the statement. i thought that having fun is the most important thing when it comes to playing a sport, namely, floorball. when we lost the first few matches, i guess that we could hold our spirits up high because we enjoyed the game. yes, sad that we lost, but the statement just come back in mind. the reason we were smiling is because we enjoyed the play that was going on. ahh, main point. i just love playing as part of the team, youths.

went back down to the sports hall on sunday for a whole day. watched the match againt gen and mrf, thought it was very fast paced and stuff. the owls won, innebandy beat skools floorball. some stuff happened, but shall not mention. went out with quite a number of people for a drink at mac. had fun laughing, esp reena's 'head talking' thing. was damn crazy. was making so much noise there. hahaas.

got home, just felt so lost again. i went home late coz i just couldn't see myself at home. seriously, they don't expect me to see them 24/7, when they themselves can't do it. they go around telling the person who i never thought they will, about me, my whereabouts, my timetable and all these kinda shit. like seriously, that tecaher they are telling is the worst person i can ever imagine being told about. seriously, the only reason i refuse to talk to her is because, i don't think she deserves to know.

and that brings me again to one thing. do my parents ever think about how i feel, to have a tecaher knowing everything about me? i never felt so cramped up, even when in school. i do everything to avoid her. she has tot ell the whole class about how lousy one can get, how complacent one can get just coz he was expected to get the top in class but never did. come on, just because on does not achieve the highest mark for any test DOES NOT, and i repeat DOES NOT freaking mean that he/she is complacent. like whatever man. who's the one going on and on but always complain we take too much of her time? fuck.

so i am suppose to be home today when my mum gets home. the best part is she took halfday, like what crap. god, pls help me.

to the dearest: thansk for everything that you told me about yesterday. you think you may have sounded harsh, but i didn't think so. i just felt more inspired after listening to your part of your story, and rest assured, all the things you have told me is still in my head. thanks for everything throughout this 3 months. happy 3rd month darling. <33

farah k.

sung at 10:44 AM
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