so all the common tests are finally over. even though it's over, i kinda regret not studying earlier. it put alot of stress in me, i just couldn't bear to leave everything i love doing aside for the week. esp floorball.

i missed training on wednesday. hated myself for not sutyding earlier for bio. got home, didnt do much. only studied a chapter and went to bed. found out there was training at tamp the next day. got up again, packed my fb stuff. i knew i had to make it. or i'll just die.

during lessons on thursday, i lost out. i was studying everything i could, not listening to anything that the teachers were talking about. i desperately tried to expand my brain to get in everything that i could get in by 3pm, the time the test started. i know that i had to do everything and anything to pass the test. skipped lunch, continued studying. was pretty nervous when mr tan was giving out the papers. oh wells. in the end went through the paper quite ok-ly. argh.

had band, was a sucky practice. shall not elaborate. the thought of it just makes me even more furious. after band, had some not-too-good experience. just made me wanna cry. but i'm glad everything is resolved now. just love the way we can udnerstand each other. the dearest was late for training. had to use sammie's stick for awhile. nice stick. i like it. haha.

i don't know what was wrong with me during training. i could not receive the passes properly, and screwed up so many times on court. i just wish what had happened for the past weeks has not affected me. it just sucks to see yourself bringing down everyone else. i just dunno. the same question is still implanted in this mind of mine.

ptm was yesterday. emcee-d with cassandra. cool experience. talked and talked and talked backstage while ms cheng was delivering her speech. the meeting with the teachers was bad; everything was revealed. and me and hanif were like cursinf and swearing to whatever ms ang was saying. haha. the forms, the noisy us and everything that we never wanted our parents to know. must say, she talked for so long. i could see parents already itching to get one-on-one with the teachers.

mine was disastrous. i didn't really accept what she was talking to him about. whenever he turned to me, i just felt like getting up and cry. so irritating. i'm gonna amke it clear once more. 'floorball is what i've picked up since i was p5. i love the sport, i paid so much for it. asking me to quit right now is NEVER ever gonna help. if u think u can, try harder. i've told you that i will stop once the league ends. it never got into you did it? come on.'

eventually got up. went outside and tears just started streaming from my eyes. i knew there was only one person that could talk to me and cheer up. it wasn't valerie or su juen or any of my friends. i just needed to talk to the teacher. well, it did help. i realised everything he said was true, was a fact, and was everything that could help me get out of the shit i was in. i sat down to think after i had my shower when i got home. i thanked God that a person like him could exist. i wish everyone could be like him.

so i went off with my friends to eat after the ptm. i was in no mood to travel with her at all. i just had to be free for awhile. sat down at macs. had some good laughs with my friends. never knew how great my classmates were. =) was eating halfway when the dearest just came and sat beside me. was damn shocked and surprised. he also had an adidas wristband with him. heh. gosh he rocks. love him. it is damn nice la. hehe.

oh wells. so my day was quite happening. everything happened just like that. i just hope i will have a peaceful 6 months to study for o levels. gosh. match against squirettes tmr. we'll do our best ya! love u guys! =)

you're just the best. thanks for cheering me up and giving me all the support i needed to go through all the bad times i've been having. thanks for being so understanding. thank you even more for being the listening ear i had to have, and lending me the shoulder to cry on. i <3>

farah k. =D

sung at 5:08 PM
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