been sick and tired about smth. truly shows what kind of person you are. i've tolerated being singled out in front of everyone, and now, i'm being pushed all the way down. i ask myself, am i that bad? to think that im often talked about and all. everyone's pissed. i just don't know what you're thinking.

tues and wed - spent my afternoon studying chem with him. finally understood the concepts. was so happy. realised everything was just there for me to understand. so grateful. =)

thurs - i forgot what happened. oh. i screwed up my chemistry test la. damn sad. but oh wells. band practice was cool. had sectional. spent my time daydreaming. after band went to eat, and straight home. felt so good to be home early, finally. haha. slept early. good rest.

fri - got up early, changed up. was wearing my bum 86 tee wit jeans. heh. love it. waited for jon under his block then off we went. we were like so late la. haha. but oh wells. the performance was okay, some mistakes, but happy with it. hung around with the band peeps for awhile, and then went straight home. got out with my fb stuff, went to meet him. =D oh!!! i took a picture with pat. so proud of myself. heh.

i just wish you would learn to understand us more. i just couldn't accept your reply just now. it totally made my morale take a plunge, all the way down, beyond the limits. i just don't understand why that kind of answer came out from you. if you don't want me in, by all means. just say it. how many times has this happened? the least you could do was to think about possible solutions to it. not just shove it off with a 'i dunno leh'. seriously. what kind of bloody answer is that? if i'm that lousy, by all means. leave me out. it'll probably save all the clenches of my heart. honestly.

i'm in no mood. bloody hell. guess i will be awake. can't stop thinking about what happened a few hours ago.

farah k.

sung at 9:25 PM
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