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Monday, January 23, 2006


so we lost the match again. but oh wells.

i feel like i'm not needed around. i mean, every week, it's a totally different thing for me. i just wished things are the same, and i want to prove my point. it just hurts to know that he is so demanding, when everything is different every week. i try my best to do the things that i am taught. i try my best to be versatile, but everything just boils down to two things: embarrassment and being singled out for nothing you did. god stay with me.

so i was sad, but oh wells. got up early on sunday to watch his match. was a good match i say, but things weren't with them. i had to leave for a concert by the sp band at the esplanade. took my own sweet time. heyy, at least i wasn't the latest. hehh. the concert was nice la. haha. went back to tamp to have dinner, then home.

was too tired to continue with my work. i dunno how i'm coping with my studies. i just hope i can do what i need to do and lessen my load when league ends. seriously, i'm still affected. i just don't know why i have been brought all the way down just by what he said. i just wish i wasn't the one. i tried my best to play my game the other day, but it turned out the opposite instead. i just wanna enjoy, enjoy everything that's happening.

oh wells. school sucked today. just hope i can have a good week ahead. new year's coming. hopefully it'll be a nice break for me. $$! =)

love ya my dearest. thanks for hearing me out that day. i don't know what it'll be like without you. hearts. <33

farah k.


sung at 3:54 PM

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