so i woke up early this morning, wanted to catch the 0610 bus 17 to school. guess i missed it. valerie called at that time. she found out i was still at home, and laughed. hehh. so we decided to take the bus to tampines, then take the mrt.

got to school, went up to class, and a whole day of lessons began. history was fun, just like the teacher la. english was also fun. i think mr poh was feeling high today. he kept laughing and making jokes. haha.

recess was shitty. i dunno why. food wasn't that nice to me. nowadays just have no appetite to eat. think i'm too worried. after that went back to bio lesson at the lab. i got in then found out something. i choose not to say it out, but that really left me thinking. was on the verge of breaking down, but tried so hard to hold it all back.

wasn't really in the mood to do anything after that, was thinking about everything that i was told. it set me thinking real hard. floorball, band, and most importantly, my studies. the o levels will be here faster than i can imagine, and i'm having the other two commitments also to tend to. i just don't know what is gonna happen to me. i just don't wish to set aside the other two commitments, coz i love them both. i guess i have to plan my schedule well. i don't wanna end up doing badly, and disappointing everyone.

thanks for all the concern that you have showed me. thanks for making me realise the trouble i'm in early, coz i dunno what could have happened to me if i knew about it a little to late. thanks for being the teacher i've always wanted.

to you: you are the only one that can make me smile. thanks for believing in me. i will do my best this year, coz i know that you'll be only a step behind me. i love you.

farah k.

sung at 5:36 PM
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