well, just felt like blogging. hee. been kinda confused the whole day today.

i've always wondered if he would ever be mine. i think he would have pretty much moved on from his previous rite? i've known him for quite some time, and i know that he is the one for me. i had doubts on my previous ones, but right now, i'm confident of starting my life with him. he is the one that i used to quarrel with, the one that i used to be bullied by, but hey. we're all grown up now, we think differently.

lately, having to see you, even for a short period of time, just makes my heart wanna love u with its every beat. your smile, the way you carry yourself just makes me melt. i've noticed you from the day i met you, but as someone else fell in your hands, i couldn't help but to shed some tears. the hurt i receive to see you walk on with her. i had to tell myself i'm strong. i had to hold on and put on a brave face whenever i saw you.

when u left, i couldn't help it. i had to hide in a corner, hide from everyone that was around. i could not control my tears. every drop that rolled down my cheeks, i tried to wipe as fast as possible. when i was ready, i went out again. i remember when you asked, 'are you okay?' i could only answer a simple yes, a really simple one.

right now, the only wish i have been wishing for, is to spend the rest of my life with you. i've enjoyed those mini talks that we have had, you've done alot for me. i could turn to you when i needed someone to talk to. you were always available. even if you were not, you try your very best to help. you've pretty much become the character i love, and i hope we can walk along the pathway god has allowed us to.

you are and will always be my wishh, from now till the day i get to lie in those beautiful arms of yours. i love you. u know i do and i hope you do too. <3

sung at 9:16 PM
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